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2004-12-04T13:44:00.000-05:00

meh...
post.... because I can goddammit.

see ya.

Halloween

2004-10-28T20:45:00.000-04:00

Bah... every year I grow more apathetic towards this holiday. Which is really sad, because it's my all-time favorite.
I wanted to be on Gaia for it but, sadly, I have been grounded until Nov. 14. *withdrawl induced twitch*
And of course all of the frelling updates get put on when I'm not there.... *seethe*

Ah well... mebbe next year... hell yeah, I'll still be on Gaia next year. Happy Halloween (to all three people who read this -.-)

Fuck fuck fuckety fuck

2004-10-19T21:29:00.000-04:00

Wheeeeeeeee.... my sanity is circling the goddamn drain ><
Friends just randomly dropping off the face of the planet, grades not good enough for my parents, school is inducing one panic-attack after another, and what can I do about it?
Abso-fucking-lutely NOTHING.
Society was not based on the mental health of its occupants.
I need tea...

Angst angst angst

2004-09-27T20:17:00.000-04:00

Bah, I've just got to get this out godammit.
I feel so fucking helpless. Some of the best friends I've had have just stopped talking to me and I don't know how to reach them or even if I should try to reach them.
It's so un-fucking-fair. I'm not upset with them, I'm not upset with any one person except perhaps myself, I just want my friends back!!
I don't even know what I did to make them leave like this!!! If I knew I'd take it back in a heartbeat, I ask them to forgive me a hundred times over if they'd just talk to me again!
I know I sound pathetic, but that's just how I feel! I was happy hanging out with them and now I'm miserable with them gone.
And I know they're not coming back.
It's a horrible thing that I've just wanted to ignore for so long but it's just the goddamn fucking truth and I can't pretend it's not anymore!!
It sucks. I can't stand it. Why did everything have to turn out so bad?

**EDIT**
OMFG. About two minutes after I posted this one of my friends magically appeared.

So rediculously pathetic

2004-09-24T22:10:00.000-04:00

Yeah.... that's me right now. Whoopee.... -.-

Er....

2004-09-15T16:10:00.000-04:00

Uh... excuse the angsty post below... I blame PMS. ^^;

.....

2004-09-12T20:41:00.000-04:00

Haven't written in this for a while.....

Anyways... I just kinda had one of those... moments of reflection I guess you could call it.
And I cried...
I never cry... not really... I'll say I cry when I'm really upset... but this was probably the first time I've actually cried for.... I don't know..... I long time....

Is anything really supposed to hurt this much? For this long? Why? How come I finally get what I want only to find it a horrible, twisted version of what I asked for?
Does everyone have to go through this? Am I just being naive and ignorant.... again?

I know, I know.... long, angsty post.... but I don't want to cry anymore. I'd rather write this down than just keep crying...

If anyone reads this, and mebbe feels like talking to me about it... I'd really appreciate it....

If not..... C'est la Vie I suppose....

FINALS

2004-06-19T11:00:00.000-04:00

Wheee!!! Only one more day of finals to go!! *dances*

Unfortunately the two I have that day are the two that I really really need good grades on: History and Math ><
Math I'm not so worried about, but History.... *dies*

My History teacher is INSANE!!! She gave us our two essay questions early because if we didn't prepare specifically for them we would never get them. That's how hard they are. And she won't even tell us which frickin one we're going to have to do that day -_-

Blah... and their questions like "Pick 10 major people from chapters 10-19 that had a signifacant impact on the world today, and say why their impact is important."
Chapters 10-19. That's 1350-1800 approx. X_x

Ah well.... I'll just study my ass off I suppose. (and pitch a fit if I get this teacher again next year)
But again, the bright side is after monday I'm free ^^
Bye bye for now.

Catcher in the Rye

2004-06-11T16:48:00.000-04:00

Damn good book ><.
It's weird, though, because I like the book because of the way its presented. I really couldn't give half a damn about the story. If anyone else had written it any other way, sure as hell I'd hate it.
But it's told like this guy with the worst ADD is the one telling it, and he'll go off on tangents all the time that ends up being important later. And he has a weird fascination with where the ducks go in the winter that is just funny to me.
Right now I kind of sound like the guy, just because that happens to me. I read a book or see a movie, and if I like it I'll act like the main character for an hour or so while the story is still in my head. It's not intentional or anything, it just happens.
And if anyone's read the Catcher in the Rye, they'll know I sound like the guy.
Welp, obviously I'm really bored because I'm writing this, and well, I'm a little depressed, just because I've still got that story and Holden's personality swimming in my head and Holden's a pretty depressed guy. Holden is the main character in the book if you didn't know.
Well yeh, I'm done rambling now. Go read the book, it's a fun read.

Blah....

2004-06-09T14:35:00.000-04:00

Agh.. it's so damn hot here... 100 is far beyond my tolerance level... ><
Wheee!!! I'm not gonna go to summer school!!! *happy dance* I aced a quiz, and I'm studying my ass off for the final ^^.

Ommm... not much in other news, I'm just procrastinating from doing my homework... 8 days left of school!

er... yeh, that's it.

And if Drew and Nick are reading this I'm really missing talking to you guys. Hope you come back soon from whatever you're doing.

I worry so much.....

2004-06-07T18:00:00.000-04:00

yeh.... bf and his best friend haven't been around for a while... which could be bad... or it could be nothing. Gah... ><
As much as I would like to live carefree I love him too much not to think and worry about him like I do. Ah well... C'est la Vie I suppose.

Yep......

2004-06-06T23:25:00.000-04:00

Welp, I have succumbed to popular computer trends (and the fact that no notebook can survive in my possesion for more than a few days) and made a blog.
Not much going on today really, which is probably why I made a blog... Oo.
Ah well, I'm just gonna see how far out of whack I can throw my sleeping pattern. Bye for now.